This might be bad but Kai would find you an easy target. He would see your anxiety and moodiness as a good weapon, for him at least. He would abuse your anxiety by making feel anxious for his own amusement. Kai believes his followers are better when they’re mad so he would turn your moodiness into a great asset for him. I see Kai using you for pleasure, he would see you not being emotionally intimate with him a good thing. I could also see him taking advantage of your kindness, because he does that with everyone.
me as a villain fan: This character is a fascinating and complex individual, whose complexity makes them sympathetic even while the evil things they have done can never be excused, and whose story provides an intriguing opportunity to explore the dark side of the human psyche.
also me as a villain fan: This is my smol fluffy murder child. They’re such a piece of shit, isn’t it magnificent? Aww, look, they’re still covered in somebody’s arterial spray.
I apologise for any mistakes, I write so quickly sometimes that I can’t keep up with my thoughts, and then I read so quickly that I can’t find them, also English is not my main language x