This might be bad but Kai would find you an easy target. He would see your anxiety and moodiness as a good weapon, for him at least. He would abuse your anxiety by making feel anxious for his own amusement. Kai believes his followers are better when they’re mad so he would turn your moodiness into a great asset for him. I see Kai using you for pleasure, he would see you not being emotionally intimate with him a good thing. I could also see him taking advantage of your kindness, because he does that with everyone.