Tag: about me

extraordinaryxmen:

candidlyautistic:

geekandmisandry:

Abuse by parents is so insidious, especially emotional abuse. Because parents can be fine and supportive and loving until something doesn’t go their way and then it’s guilt and appeals to authority that border on gaslighting.

Because I don’t know what else to call it when a parent says the way they remember it is the TRUTH, negating a child’s experience and memory and then saying that they are right because they are the parent.

Their version of what happened is the official story and a child gets manipulated into believing it or agreeing with it.

And sometimes these relationships don’t necessarily change when the child becomes an adult, sometimes that child standing up for themselves and holding their ground becomes evidence that they don’t “care” and that they are “unfeeling” or “unappreciative” of what the parent has given them.

And sure, maybe overall they are top tier parents worthy of awards, but so many can’t face that at best they have been using abusive tactics to emotionally manipulate their children.

And just because parents are the Authority, and just because society thinks certain things are socially acceptable, doesn’t make it not abuse.

when I was a teen and was overwhelmed with feelings and shit, sometimes I just started to cry for the most simple things like if my mom talked to me in a rude way I would cry nonstop, she always said that my tears were fake “crocodile tears” and that I was “too sensitive”. After that I could not show my emotions anymore to anyone, I stopped crying in front of people, I have stopped to show emotions is like I blocked everything.
Plot twist: now my mom calls me “emotionless or without feelings” lol

What makes it even worse is being an only child with a need to please. You’re torn inside. You know how you’re being treated is wrong, but you feel guilty going against them because you are the only child they have.

What normal children feared: clowns, monsters, the dark, loud noises, etc

What I feared: growing up and getting addicted to drugs, growing up and living in poverty with no teeth and bugs crawling in my house, growing up and having horrible children like the ones on Maury, and falling asleep. No, not because I had nightmares. Because I was legit afraid of the act of slowly falling into unconsciousness.

I mean, what the fuck.

I was tagged by @extraordinaryxmen @cheerocracyx and @doubtersgetnocookies ❤

coffee or tea

early bird or night 🦉

chocolate or vanilla

spring or fall

silver or gold

pop or alternative

freckles or dimples

snakes or sharks

mountains or fields

thunderstorm or lightning

Egyptian or Greek mythology

ivory or scarlet

flute or lyre

eyes or lips

witch or fairy

opal or diamond

butterflies or honeybees

macarons or éclairs

typewritten or handwritten letters

secret garden or secret library

rooftop or balcony

spicy or mild

opera or ballet

London or Paris

Vincent van Gogh or Claude Monet

denim or leather

potions or spells 

ocean or desert

mermaid or siren

masquerade ball or cocktail party

not tagging anyone cause I have no idea who already has or hasn’t been tagged

Rules: Bold the statements that apply to you, italicize your aspirations, then tag nine people.

I was tagged by @extraordinaryxmen, @cheerocracyx, @likeamothtothedark and @fragilelikeabomb0106 – Thank you so much, all of you! ❤

APPEARANCE

I am over 5′5″ • I wear glasses/contacts • I have blond hair • I wear sweatshirts a lot • I prefer loose clothing to tight clothing • I have one or more piercings• I have at least one tattoo • I have green eyes • I have dyed or highlighted my hair • I have gotten plastic surgery • I have or had braces • I sunburn easily • I have freckles • I paint my nails • I typically wear makeup • I don’t often • I am pleased with how I look • I prefer Nike to Adidas • I wear ⚾ hats backward

HOBBIES AND TALENTS

I play a sport • I can play an instrument • I am artistic • I know more than one language • I have won a  in some sort of competition • I can cook or bake without a recipe • I know how to swim • I enjoy writing • I can do origami • I prefer movies to 📺 shows • I can execute a perfect somersault • I enjoy singing • I could survive in the wild on my own • I have read a new 📓 series this year • I enjoy spending time with friends • I travel during school or work breaks • I can do a handstand

EXPERIENCES

I have had my first  • I have gotten drunk • I have told a crush I like them • I have travelled outside of the country • I have flown on an ✈️ • I have stayed awake for more than 48 hours • I have had a near-death experience • I have caught something on  • I have performed in a talent show • I have shot a pellet gun • I have been on a train • I have gone scuba diving • I have broken a bone • I have slow-danced • I have gone on a shopping spree

RELATIONSHIPS

I am in a relationship • I have been single for over a year • I have a crush • I have a best friend • I have known a friend for over ten years • My parents are together • I have a brother • I have dated my best friend • I am adopted • My crush has confessed to me • I have had a long-distance relationship • I am an only 👶 • I give advice to my friends • I have made an online friend • I met up with someone I have met online

AESTHETICS

I have heard the ocean in a conch shell • I have 👀 the ☀️ rise • I enjoy 🌧️ days • I have slept under the stars • I meditate outside • the sound of chirping calms me • I enjoy the smell of the 🏖️ • I know what snow tastes like • I listen to 🎶 to fall 😴 • I enjoy thunderstorms • I enjoy ☁️ 👀 • I have attended a bonfire • I pay close attention to colours • I find mystery in the ocean • I enjoy hiking on nature paths • winter is my favourite season

MISCELLANEOUS

I can fall  in a moving vehicle • I am the mom friend • I live by a certain quote • I like the smell of Sharpies • I am involved in extracurricular activities • I enjoy Mexican food • I can drive stick-shift • I have memorized an entire song in a day• I believe in true 💖 • I dream up scenarios to fall 😴 • I sing in the 🚿 • I wish I lived in a 🎮 • I have a canopy above my 🛏️ • I am multi-racial • I am a redhead • I own at least three dogs • I am LGBT+

I tag @doubtersgetnocookies and I am too lazy to find 8 others who haven’t already been tagged lol.

Dating me would include…

I was tagged by @fragilelikeabomb0106 and @doubtersgetnocookies…thanks loves! 

To be honest when I first saw this floating around, and realizing I would get tagged eventually, I had no clue what I would even say about this at first. But now I have thought of a few things I guess I can put. 😛

-First and foremost, you would have to understand and accept my HUGE love for Kai and Evan. Obviously I don’t love them more than you but…the thirst is real. XD

-I want to share EVERYTHING with you. My life, all my hobbies, all my tv shows, etc. 

-You’ll have to understand and accept my occasional bouts of anxiety and depression

-I can be clingy and needy. Sorry.

-I’m thicc and I love food and I love to eat…so if you’re looking for someone fit, that’s not me, and never gonna be me. Sorry.

-I will want to go on many trips and adventures with you

Now for the more important things…

-I will put your feelings and wants and needs above mine 95% of the time

-I am INCREDIBLY loyal

-I will want to take care of you all the time; mentally, physically, and emotionally

-I will want to protect you from everything bad in the world, even though that’s impossible

-If you are sad or upset, I will do ANYTHING and EVERYTHING I can to make you happy again. I won’t give up until you’re back to feeling yourself again. I won’t be happy until you are.

-I will be your biggest cheerleader and supporter for everything you set out to do

-If something is wrong, I will know. Trust me.

-I am kinky, I get horny at the drop of a hat, I LOVE SEX and physical contact

-I usually will put your pleasure before my own

-Talk to me. About everything. I love hearing what you have to say and I never get bored or annoyed.

-Just as I love to share all my hobbies with you, I want you to share all of yours with me. Even if you don’t think I will like it, do it anyway. I am down for anything that you love.

I think that’s it? I think I touched on all the most important things. 

@extraordinaryxmen does this seem accurate? XD

5 Things

I’ve seen this floating around tumblr, and even though I’m not cool enough to have been tagged by anybody, I’m doing it anyways, cause it’s fun. 🙂

5 things you’ll find in my bag:

1. Keys
2. Chapstick
3. Bobby pins
4. Change
5. Lotion

5 things you’ll find in my room:

1. Funko Pop figures
2. A sock monkey
3. American Girl Dolls
4. Books
5. An antique telephone

5 things that make me happy:

1. My best friend
2. The Sims
3. Tumblr
4. My shows: Buffy, Game of Thrones, Misfits, Riverdale, Cowboy Bebop
5. My neighbor’s dogs Tia, Latte, and Java

5 things I’m currently into:

1. Rereading the Harry Potter series (again)
2. Making GIFs
3. Tumblr, specifically, many, many side fan blogs
4. Saving money (or, trying to)
5. My new job

5 things on my to-do list:

1. Wrap gifts
2. Watch Star Wars series
3. Write a New Year’s Eve themed one shot
4. Make more GIFs and start up a few of my fan blogs
5. My Sims 2 projects (there are many)

I tag whoever wants to do this. 🙂