Apology

I know I have personally apologized to a lot of you about my recent reclusiveness, but I feel like a public apology is in order as well.

As some of you may or may not know, I haven’t been feeling myself since August 24th. I thought it was just stress from an eventful August, and that after a long holiday weekend I would back to being myself.

But I’m not.

Communicating has been hard for me. Writing has been hard for me. Other things that are important to me have been hard for me as well. Although I don’t feel depressed, these are all classic signs of depression, so I’m not sure.

As many of you probably do know, I have recently started dating an amazing woman. For a few days, I entertained the idea that maybe my new relationship was causing me to not want to talk as much with others.

But I know for a fact now that this is not true. I WANT to talk to every one of you like I used to. It hurts me and saddens me more than any of you will know. I love you all and you all mean the world to me; I would not be where I am today if it weren’t for some of you. I’m doing the best I can to stay in touch as much as possible. Unfortunately my best may not be enough. And as I said, I am struggling with other pursuits in my life as well, not just socializing.

I’m tagging @doubtersgetnocookies @bloodreadlipstick @fragilelikeabomb0106 @likeamothtothedark because this goes out to you all especially.

This won’t last forever. I know that. I ask for patience and understanding, but I understand if that isn’t possible.

Thank you, and I love you all. 💕